Oh Good Grief KC!

Reflecting on the loss of my father… I don’t know if I could ever feel like I got enough support when my father died. 

I of course received condolences for the weeks surrounding the actual death and funeral that September of 2010. The years that followed were the hardest to support myself.  I had genuine friends who kept me distracted, and at times, they expressed concern about the changes grief and loss had brought into my life. I am forever  grateful to have had those that stayed close to me. 

The pain was way deeper than I could have expected or can even explain today. 

I just faded into it (the pain) some days, I buried myself in things that wouldn’t return the comfort I needed. For example: work and job hunting- which caused me to experience more loss and caused me to avoid managing my grief. 

This post was written over a year ago, but as I'm still getting comfortable with social media, it has been lingering, waiting to be edited and posted. Even after all this time, I still feel the same each year as the anniversary of his death and his birthday on March 24th approach. I am still figuring out social media, I am well versed in grief, and I have had a lot of practice managing my emotions. I can confidently say that losing a loved one isn’t something we should have to “get past or get over.” 

Sometimes we lose someone that fills so much space we have to accept it does not get better and some days it’s still not ok.